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12月15日 灵魂收集者有一种人,它只有在垃圾时间才打电话给你,因为这样会显的它很忙一点也不寂寞. 有时候,它会回答它也想你,前提是在你要先说出口. 有种情况,也是唯一的一种版本,那就是当它烦躁的时候它会拿你发脾气,但是当你无法忍受的时候它会开始讲道理并把所有的责任怪罪在你身上. 有好多次,当你想要turn around的时候,它会即时打电话给你,让你在无形中打消那个念头. 有那么一点可怜,因为只能它选择见你的时间,而你只能按照它的规律运转. 有太多的案例,它会嫌你自私,因为它拥有的不是你的全部,而你却不能反驳其实它这样讲才是自私的真谛. 也许~~~ 有一天它会告诉你,"我已经拥有了你的灵魂,其实也不过如此,现在我有了别的我不在需要你了" 想要收集灵魂 还是被人收集 其实我都不想,突然想起黄剑详说的,此时此刻我已经灵魂付体~~~不要给它们机会!!! 11月23日 About secretsYou might be brave enough to reveal your secrets, only to have it used against yourself or someone else‘s secret might effect you in unexpected ways. There are some secrets your only too happy to keep, other surface only to be buried deeper they were before, but the most powerful secrets are the truth you thought you could never to reveal, but once spoken, it changes everything. 10月15日 New BlogThis blog is totally watsed...
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gotta be down for reji check you out!
hope i can hear this song at that night.
jst heard the lyrics" i like the gals who hate to love coz they jst like me." love it!!
haha , no more bullshit. peace!
10月4日 不爱的爱情,永远不会变坏我们调情,我们暖昧,但不要相爱
我和你,男和女,谁都逃不过爱情。在都市生活里,男和女,不经意地就暧昧起来。 我们都是世俗的男女,我们怀疑爱情、害怕爱情、否定爱情,但我们都不可制止、无一例外地渴望和期待爱情。在这个躁动的时代里,在生活平静的表层下,暗潮汹涌。在我们衣着光鲜的外表下,都包藏着一颗不安分的祸心。知书达礼、温顺乖巧的外表下藏着的是一颗颗动荡不安的心,随时期待着不平常的事情发生,随时准备打破原状,时刻等待着反叛或出轨。而我们又必须承认自己野心勃勃却又胆小如鼠,尽管我们会有一千种一万种美妙的假设,却仍然老老实实地蹲在原地,止步不前。 我们舍不得小心翼翼打造的那些幸福,我们更害怕那些责任的束缚,情感的纠缠。在某一个时刻,你可能会在某个瞬间出现,在我生命里停顿或逗留,我们调情,我们动情,但我们永远不要相爱。 我们可能某一天,在一个陌生的街头擦肩,你不认识我,我不认识你,但我们都被对方吸引,我们深深地对视,或者不停地回头,我们用眼神交流,但最终消失在人海。仅此而已;我们可能邂逅于某一段旅途,我们萍水相逢,但相见恨晚,于是,我们畅所欲言地交谈,我们放肆地快乐,我们在对方面前表现得几近完美,从对方那里,我们甚至找到了一种青春的复苏,然而,我们也只不过是旅伴。仅此而已;我们可能相遇在不知名的酒吧,酒吧里缠绵的音乐,暧昧的灯光,我们素昧平生,我们彼此端详,然后,你走过来对我说,我们可以聊聊吗?于是,我们说一些模棱两可,似是而非的话,我们互相调笑,然后,各自离开。仅此而已;我们可能是相识多年的朋友,各有家室,但却有着淡淡的感觉在心头萦绕,我们称兄道弟,或者称为红颜、蓝颜知已,我们无话不谈,我们互相关心,我们心照不宣,但是,我们始终不道破这一种关系,在有生之年里,就这样氤氲。仅此而已;我们也许是上下级关系,我们有一种若有若无、若即若离的默契,我们了然于心,但又不动声色。仅此而已;我们可能结识于虚拟的网络,隔着屏幕,我们被对方的语言或者某种特质吸引,我们不见面,不说话,不知道对方的容颜,却有一种感觉在彼此之间无声地流淌绵延,我们觉得对方和自己是那样的灵犀相通,我们甚至觉得对方就是我们最压韵合拍最适合的人,但是,我们不要走下网络,因为,现实生活中,你不是王子,我也不是公主。仅此而已。
我们需要爱和被爱的感觉,喜欢那种夹杂着爱与喜欢的暧昧感觉,那种除了彼此没有第三者能体会到的那种淡淡的苦涩与惆怅,隐秘的快乐与欢喜。我们爱爱情,爱那种在爱里沉溺、在爱里辗转、在爱里享受、在爱里思念、甚至在爱里哭泣的过程,但却不爱收拾爱情遗留的一地鸡毛。仅此而已,适可而止。 暧昧就是平淡生活里的激情调剂,身在其中,把握为候,其乐无穷。但调料终是不能当饭吃,爱情就象烟和酒,少点可以逸情,多则伤身。所以,我们调情,我们暧昧,却永远不要相爱。 10月2日 a bit of everyday-episode 2: condom?
what do you think that is? whatever whats on your mind, its so cute, but not my size though! LOL 9月29日 aint it funny?哈哈,突然觉得你们都是一类人
找什么理由?
要什么理智?
好意思跟我讲理性?
有什么权利称之为我得到教训?
这根本就是个笑话,你跟它们还不是一样.
哈哈~说的真好听! 就因为讲的时候越好听,现在才越显的丑陋.
我的记忆简直就是个粪坑,因为两种嘴脸同时出现在我脑海中的时候,觉得恶心.
操,还不如用memory card,垃圾想删就删...哈哈,那不更简单....想起来就觉得痛快.
真他妈的是个讽刺,我要做个凶手而不是受害者,因为做受害者的滋味真他妈不好受,hoho~
要是凶手可恶,那最他妈可恶的就是制造凶手的人~~哈哈,你厉害.
妈的,假期即将结束,体内不安定因素又在蠢蠢欲动.....细胞开始活跃,人格有点分裂.~哈哈
最近空间持续暴力气氛一星期..
我现在先去干点坏事....
9月17日 bured with desireFor each forgotten kiss
For all the memories For all the times a look Said all we had to say You played your part so well A modern juliet came on cupid's wings And then you flew away You touched my face And you called my name I'm burned with desire For every sleepless night Forever in your arms For every hour spent Lost in the reverie You broke your promises No shame and no regrets You burned the bridges too And in this mystery You touched my face so beautiful And you called my name I'm burned with desire But you left me in the rain 9月15日 shopin day 今天真是开心的一天,好久没有shopin这么爽了. 还是那么爱nudie, 还有DC new era,顺便踢了个大兵头. 顺便感谢jlo陪我逛街. 献上照片一张! get a life!!!!!!!! 黑头发顶着一头原本属于黑色的头发,我度过漫长而又阴霾的一个月.
刘海前的那一道黄似乎是像是离开家前种下的恶果,在这里的空气里发芽,滋生.
在我的身边长成一棵树,没有果实,换来的只是一树的荆棘,每当夜幕降临的时候刺痛着我的心脏,我知道我无法绕道而行.
无奈,我不知道如何是好,我得砍掉它.我的身体已经千穿百孔,我无法让我的心也遭到同样的境遇.
于是决定砍掉它.那一刻,直到那一刻我才明白,原来它已经默默生长了9个月.
种子在9个月前无意间飘到我的面前,我拾起它,把它埋在土里,原本没有其它能开花结果,但它却出人意料的成长迅速.
那时,我明白,既然我让它发芽,或许我应该投入更多的精力去照顾.
树越长越高,这种感觉让我兴奋,安慰....期待,我想我可以抛弃那些艳丽而有小气的花,细心的照顾我的树.因为它在我面前拔地而起,会一直留在我身边.
我的树一直在我身边,直到我见到它的全貌时,我觉得这就是我的全部,它应该就会在那里,即使我离开它一小会,它也会抵挡得住风风雨雨,我以为它已经足够坚强.我以为......
在这一个月里,我无法不为它担心,生活里的一切都变成陪角,我无时无刻不在想我的树,生怕它营养不足,生怕蛀虫会伤害它,似乎连会停留在它树干上的鸟也变成了我驱赶的对象......我变的狂暴了,原先平静的我变成了喋喋不休的园丁,爱护着它,却忘记了它原来也需要阳光和空气.似乎我在违背了大自然的原则.
一股狂风扫过,树叶随这风摇动着,我的预感不妙.
果然,我的预感变成了现实. 它还在继续的长高,也许我的空间已经无法容纳它.
直到这一天,我才听动树叶的语言,它一直都在对我说话,太吵,我无法辨别它的语言.
原来它一直告诉我,它是一个遗失的种子,从来就属于别人.它,属于另外一个园丁,而我只是做了同样的工作,直到我唤醒它的一直藏在心里的感受.
树告诉我,这里的土壤虽然它已经适应,可是它要回到原来属于它的那片土壤.
我如何舍得! 原来我一直以来的强迫才开始让它慢慢充满荆棘,不健康的养分无法再让它茁壮成长,或许我能做的只是让它回到原来属于它的那片土壤.
我明白,我真的明白,在倔强的园丁也会在违背大自然的准则之后得到惩罚.
砍掉它,我不忍心,把它送回原本属于它的土壤,我心疼.
或许该离开的是我吧,让它自由的成长,向往它想要达到的高度.我该寻找自己的土壤.
一眨眼,我已经记不得上一秒睁开眼睛是什么时候,前一秒和后一秒似乎隔离了很久.
也许是白日梦,我只知道,我又变回了黑头发.....象所有的梦一样,在睁开眼睛的时候,已经记不得梦里的事, 树的影子也在我心里越来越模糊.
心里淡淡的,象喝了一口冰水,一时的冰凉慢慢的腿去.......
9月12日 UNDER Different Moon
Long time go, I felt the same. Air is so cold, clouds don’t fade away but I can barely see the moon. Do you have a moon hanging on the sky? You are under the moon but it’s different with mine, coz we are thinking of different person. I had a trip to the moon, hope that I can see you from up there. Gazing down I couldn’t find your shadow.
From the moon, Iv seen the earth kept revolving no matter how much pains I have. IV searched every corner but you r not under the same moon. Sun is hot but the moon is cold. I feel so cold here. Reflections by the sun doesn’t give me any strength to cure the sadness.
Suddenly, fantasies stop from here. The trip is end but it is no different. It is still cold in the present. I found a place in between, let me live in between of the past and the present. The only hope I got, I will always be here until we see the same moon.
9月11日 farewellI love you more than i should
So much more than is good for me. But i know what i need let you go, let it fade away. i regret tomorrow more than yesterday...
![]() 9月9日 sorrow7:02 7:06 7:10 7:15 7:16......7:23...7;28...7:33..7;38..7:52, the end.
my sorrow.
dont know how many times do i have to go trough.
dont know where is the end, jst wish it could finish me off right now.
all i got is a busy tone.
jst wanted is to hear ur voice, but what i got is pain.
dare not to count these figures, coz it times my sorrows.
im sorry, it accidentally unveiled something i didnt want to believe.
i thought we fell asleep.
in empty street we met, in crowded street we separate.
only god is listening sorrow.
9月8日 free thinkingFriday night is definitely suppose to be fun, but things are going odd sometimes n it varies in several occasions. sit bak in my house and pouring down bottles of cruisers is chilling not to mention what is ppl doing in a party or on crowded street.
i assumed that im ok whatever ppl who i really care is doing right now, it makes me act weired and think weired like digging in the tunnel without lights, dont know where im heading to. when i lost direction, achol made me go beyond all this.
should have bought more cruisers so i can continue this feeling, well i can still think, it released my mind got limitations out my head, i can think of anything, say whatever what i want. who cares what exactly my point is in here? this is something for myself to read.
so wanna escape from this, got myself locked in here. most of the time i been thinking of this, what im waiting for is jst a piece of paper that iv already paid so much for it, im locked like a monkey, crawling in the cage, play myself til i have lost myself, maybe having a job in circus is way better than this, at least i have something to push forward like my life isnt pointless.
crazy night with no actions, only thing i see is this screen, empty botles n ashtray piled out with butts. life is falling until i realised im running out time. whats gonna be in the other day? no appoloies for yesterday, only questions remained for where im heading to.
funny, we are always talking about how dirty the world is, we forgot we were te dirty things ourselfves at some point of our life times, we did bad things to one another, then we blame all this on others who ever got us hurt. i feel sorry who ever suffered from my bad, but at least i wont be looking for excues anymore. plz dont give me a excuses anymore coz i had enuff of it even by those i created by myself.
will somebody make me smile? i need somebody who can make me smile. we all smile everyday, but how many of your smilings were true to yourself? the real happy smiling face became rare.....this is pathetic, if i can only make myself smile only on the purpose of make smile. good enuff to be a actor. who will make me smile? the truly one.
(too much drunk talking up there, maybe this is the only thing i would agree with when i look at it again tomoro.) 8月9日 step one: kill me on sight step two: send me a ambulancehow should i look at this? The question is far beyone my knowledge could ever cover.
maybe i could say that you are my inspiration! Coz my deadly blog got new words to fill in from the decent inspiration you provided. Sleepless night with your dedication became emotional.
i dont give f**k abt what you think at this fucking moment if you are reading it, coz you didnt care of what i think. this is my principal. Dont blame, coz this is fair. oh, if i left too quick, i would like to appologize, coz i forgot to say goodnight to you and your accompany! i am a decent man but swears a lot, conflict is my last name im sorry to let you know!
perhaps you are right, my perceptions depends on how i like at my life, coz you just draw me a new line of so called tolerance, allow someone to take my spot on ur bed isnt the deadline, you've got potentials! geeze. FYAMFB!
oops, for got to say good night!!
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